Monday, February 22, 2010


I wish things could be better between us. I wish I didn't feel this need to be part of your life when you so clearly don't need or want me there. I wish I had the guts to just tell you how it is and how you make me feel. I wish I knew what I did to make you hate me. I wish I didn't cry about this so much. I wish I didn't lose a best friend.
I wish I could just let you go.

[I needed to get this out, so maybe I could really move on. Please read the post below if you want some happier thoughts.]


  1. awww sweetie. I just had a break up too. We were two weeks away from one year. I'm trying to look back and just realize that it wasn't all bad, but if it's not right we should not waste anymore time. I know it's cliche, but you know what they say....when one door closes...
    Chin up buttercup...I hope you feel better quick. Submerse yourself in helps a TON!!

  2. Thank you Nikki! You are so sweet...but I actually didn't break up with my boyfriend. He is still happily in my life and I love him so. I am talking about losing one of my best friends. She was a big part of my life and all of the sudden she isn't anymore. Its been really hard for me, because I don't have a lot of close friends and to lose one feels like I am losing part of me.
    Although, when I do look back she didn't bring out the best in me, and she didn't make me happy most of the time. I don't regret our friendship, but maybe after I move on, I will learn that we weren't meant to be life long friends as I had wished.
    Thank you for cheering me up. And I am so sorry about your break-up, those can be so hard. But as you said, when one door opens :) It is nice to have support out there...

  3. awwww, well I am SO glad you still have your love.
    And you totally deserve someone who wants your shouldn't have to work so hard for it.
    Your feelings for her are exactly my feelings for an ex, so I just assumed it was that. ha!
    anyhoooo...have a good night :)

  4. Awww, I'm sorry to hear about your loss, it's not easy no matter what age you are! Hang in there, Megan, God already has that place filled with a person who WILL bring out the best in you and one that you WILL have alot of fun with, it's just a matter of his timing. :O)

  5. Thanks Julia...I miss hanging out with you.

    Nikki, thanks again!!