I hate how my emotions get out of my control and the first thing that goes is my art and inspiration. Tonight, I withdrew from my painting class that I was so excited for at the beginning of the semester. I do not want to waste my time [and my teacher's time too] sitting in front of a blank canvas. Therefore, I let it go. I do not want to say I quit or gave up, because I do believe that my love will come back soon. I will find that inspiration again.
Another love in my life that suffered my sadness is my loved ones. I pushed them away when I needed them most. I am truly sorry to these special people [you know who you are]. I have found a way out of this sadness and I plan to repair my hurting heart. I will need your help, please. I love you so much.
I am quite proud of myself for posting such a private and intimate subject in my life-its the only way I could think of to get it off my mind. Thank you for reading, and I promise the next post will be happy :)